A little over three months ago, my mother was tragically taken from my family by a fatigued driver. The three words that could describe the grieving process:
There are literally no words to describe the loss of a parent, let alone a sudden loss. I have been dealing with so many things, trying to be an adult, and keep my head above the water. Sometimes it seems to be too much.
Not only did this happen, but I also wrecked a new car (I’ll admit: it was due to MY error). Due to this, though, my hood hit my windshield as I was driving to a job interview. Luckily, I hadn’t made it out of town and my neighbor, who also happens to be a police officer, was able to get me some help.
I’ve rented my first car (and had my first budget due to spending so much on my rent-a-car), I’ve been able to start moving stuff over to my new apartment, I’m starting to realize life is hard anyway (no matter the struggle) and I’m learning to be more honest about my mental health, my life, and my future.
One thing I’ve realized: I’M DONE WITH SCHOOL FOR A WHILE AFTER COMMUNITY COLLEGE!
That’s right: JUST DONE (especially if this new job at Dillard’s works out).
There’s also nothing wrong with that.
My mother didn’t even get her associate’s degree. I will get mine.
I have no other option.
So, what have I learned in the past three months? It’s okay not to have everything figured out.
Sometimes, you just have to go with flow. Sometimes, you have to learn to surrender. Sometimes, you have to learn to LET GO and LET GOD!